Phases Part 2

As I was ranting about before we all go through phases. One not so eventful night I was reflecting on my life and the phases I've gone through, physically and personality wise. Then I started thinking about things in my life that I thought was going to be a phase but have ended up being things that have molded who I am today. Like I said before high school was for sure the most life changing part of my life as of yet but it goes beyond that all the way up to present date I'm still shaping and figuring out who I am and what I want to do with my life. But as I thought about all of this I realized how much 2008-2009 effected me. For example it was summer of 2008 that I got my first wedding magazine.

It was actually from 2004 which is why it was free but I got it at Down East and it opened a whole new world for me. I thought that it was fun and I scowered through those pictures thousands of times. I carried it with me to school to church kept notes in it it was my favorite book at the time. I have always loved weddings but this was so different than anything I had ever looked at. I remember there was a book it was a martha stewart weddings book from the library that I use to check out all the time but with these books it was just something that I thought but I had no idea that years later I would have stacks of wedding magazines at the side of my bed be subscribed to all my favorite sites and be working toward a carrier wedding planning. I could go on for DAYS talking about weddings but I'll spare you and just share one of my planning boards.

 

As I said this is just on of the many but there are so many details here that have come to be so important to me things that I love and want to incorporate so badly at my own wedding.  Wedding just fill me up with joy all the details and love that are shared mean so much to me and it's something that I realized I just wouldn't be who I am if all of my phone conversations with friends didn't at some point involve the latest thing I found in the world of weddings. 

It was that same year that a huge thing came into my life and that is photography. For years I had been telling people someday I was going to be an interior decorator. That year I took my first interior design class...and I hated it. I was only 15 and I felt crushed I felt like my life had no direction and I had no idea what I was going to do. On a spring afternoon I went out with my siblings and took my moms digital camera and started taking pictures of just about everything and when I went back and looked through them I was shocked to see this. 

if it wasn't for this day I would have never even thought to continue photography I would never have dreamed that I would have my own website and portfolio that I am incredibly proud of. I was just blowing off steam and it ended up changing my life.

The last thing that I want to talk about is music. Music is by far the most effective and influential thing in our world I believe. Everyone has their own personal taste and style in music and if effects and shapes who we are. I had never really had my own style I never had really had a band or a type that I considered "Emily music" I just listened to everything. We were driving to my moms friends wedding and I was going to help with the photography and I was incredibly nervous my dad told me that one thing that would help me was music to listen to something that I really liked and get myself psyched we were already in the car and I had no idea what to listen to I really didn't care one way or the other because mostly all I listened to was Muscials anyway. He pulled out a CD his friend had burnt for him and told me it wasn't really his style but he thought that I might really like it. 

Needless to say it changed me. A few weeks later my parents separated and everything fell apart. It was this album and my friends that held me together. I realized that what I felt when I listened to this music style whatever it is alternative, indie, techno, whatever you want to call it but it made me feel better as a person it made me want to go out and do something with my life and I loved how it made me feel and I never want to give up that feeling. Later Lara made me realize I'd been listening to this CD for years and had never realized it thanks to her. It became our thing blasting it in my car windows down overcome by beautiful lyrics and joy with life and it has become a staple in my life and helped introduce me to what I am proud to call my music.

So tell me now, I want to know about what small things that have changed your life that at the time you thought were just going to be a phase and ended up shaping who you are? And most of all know I love you.